“Satan Malade”, from Les Diableries, c. 1861, hand-tinted stereocard |
my soul is all fuck-it poems...
on a drunken walk home interrupted by tired legs
I grew lazy in swirled thoughts pouring myself, pissed
there were these warm candy beats,
treats meted meeting seemingly ready
to jump out, in a coin-op parade of wanted...
I entered a cab stand to stab at being still
I was waiting for the hack
watching velvet black painted onto
sticky misty night filled rabbit holes
the colors formed, bright blessing themselves,
in artifice and nightlife...
I began eating through
these selfish confections of my mind
trying to find a me inside you...
(bubble thought instant tea)
even in the smallest
of northern river communities,
there is a boundary
where city takes leave
at an edge of bleeding
at a place and time
where seasons ever peel
worn through what
Boreal forests can reveal
about our being here too...
(do they
beg for words
in the eons
and ghosts
of water's cycles
like I do...?)
the trees say
we are ritual yes
pines take care
to hold sentinel reins
each Autumn here
shudder heavy lay terms
fill the air with decay
maple and oak
begin to sway
their becoming
bare fingers
reach and linger
rooting the sky...
so I tell stories
to myself, asking
me, if the cabby
is drunker than I
I press down
the window open
trying to be outside
my life's linear ambulation
and to articulate
even if fleetingly so
that I am tasting to know
the sweet parts
of living too fast...
(this is the smile
kept from you)
what I want to last
are these dashes
of dastardly daring
the pieces of my mesmerized marveling
that are taking hold
of the something(s) to keep
in my soul past these bones...
EJR ©
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