crawling for my grottoed Callisto
hibernating
hive culture
super
organisms
breathable
membranes
folded
velvet
rubbed
fingers
felt
little fibers
thoughts
are part
of
networks
tools
tooth taste
time
records
memory
inaccurately
I bear
the
gilded weights
of my shame or guilt
like
blood longing
to
paint my cuts
into
some kind
of
permanent temple
of
erosion and
tidal
pool exchanges
stars
explode their hearts
all
over the involuntary nature
of
how all material
comes
into being
by
becoming other stars
and
shaping a perspective
of
everything between us
the computers and wires
the
concrete and venal byways
the
tall buildings and
the spread quiet
of their comfort zones
of their comfort zones
the
sofas, kitchens and Styrofoam
holding
the heated preparations
the
food and durations
the
pinwheel algebras
the Shirley Jackson lotteries
the
taxi cabs running the meters
of paper chances sold
so even, if I were
to ask the driver
to
get me nowhere fast
he
still turns around
to
say, sir you’re already there
why
not open the door
and
get outside yourself
why
not dare yourself
past
apathy again
why
not trust yourself
through
all your clever disguises
all your modern play-scale virginities
through all those monologues
and diatribes that
don’t surmise
as
much as they, thug-alley
your compassionate
logic’s demise
no, I say to myself
leaning into hesitation
with my head against the glass
and my hand on the handle fast
the
big game is always on
and I have to play
to win something
in
the orbital sweeps
in the minor to
major chords
in the songs I hear singing
when I play for a desire to belong
when I play the patent rhythms
that chain my denial
when I play myself
masked to each stage
I wander on, like Autumn
weaning
a warm licking wind
receding
back to the tucked light
bleeding
ways to get back inside
to where magic seeds itself again
inside every constellation
that is waiting for a name
in that place
where my perceptual constancies
are my worn mistakes
where my perceptual constancies
are my worn mistakes
are my ritual births
are my skies
I have cast into
I have cast into
and over
and over again
where my ripe is sown
with every part of me
I've netted and eaten
I've netted and eaten
so, that someday
I might be passed
I might be passed
as
scat scattered
into a future
present
with the past
to
see if I might even
adapt
another form
before I learn or not
what
can keep me
from
being burned
into the norm
EJR
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