I don't write, I paint myself blind with words...diogenes herded...ignorance...gilded cages...filling up on beauty unleashed...free will's maddening fractures...eyes that need to smell to see...
December 23, 2015
la vita ha lacrime per il dolore e la gioia...
la vita ha lacrime per il dolore e la gioia
(though my heart is heavy, I am smiling, loving what a life, Chris Bearup did lead)
with its scythe
and an uncanny knack
for always being there
where needs be waiting
death slips unseen
an integer lien
a part of every life, here
bargained for or found,
I would guess
this is addressed
when at first
we come to be
a soul to bones
to breathe...
death doth knock with marrow on its mind
every name is but intention fleshed and stretched over skin
amble soul entertains night's shade from a birthed swim
even if death doth knock with 'morrow on its mind
death does not wait for the light to turn green
nor when any moment is just right for you or me
rarely will we see death coming
it has mastered the stolen confident quiet cajole of rain
tides and Moon, fence and calendars, all with a smile
it rides tall knives, in the reeds, a changeling of seasons...
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reasons are things that we swear by
when we feel we've been here before
when, the what of every dream
is how we begin to fall
when realizing this is how
every life will end
with something beyond
our control, walking
out and away
through some door...
yes, we mumble something,
something about promising,
to palm our last exhale, leaping
into the Sun with someone
if only, to imagine them
as staying with us
for awhile longer
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each memory says
this is what it smelled like
when we were made to laugh
when we branded ourselves
a-wrought-iron-a-glow
with these things
we held in the just past...
we always hold
some safe harbor
we've lit, in hopeful cause
in our never-squeezed-
too-tightly land
of making believe
some tragedy
hasn't happened
to us yet...
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and when we need move on
we awaken our slip forms
and our fires become dream ready
we capture the imagery
in a hurried,
fleeting awareness
that this is perhaps, life
as it was meant to be seen
something telling of we
always being in the middle
of one of our best(s) of time
if only we'd chosen to see...
because no, we are never ready
to let go of someone
who has died unexpectedly
we are not wired to be as such
this is why love lasts
even in faded recall
and old photographs...
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death doth knock with marrow on its mind
when ye bones are a who and what ye will be
and yes some of we may be spared,
this time 'round, so we just pray on these days,
our souls are meant to be kept with...
here in the ever after
we burn inside to out
wear the ghost limbs
in our hearts
of someone who has paid
the piper reaping, so
we search for something
they have left for us worth keeping
something that remains of them
some permanent thing to steal into
some thing we stain ourselves with...
because the truth is
for most of those
who got to meet you, Chris
you are someone, we
already know we miss...
EJR ©
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I am hanging onto your every word. Your writing grips me.
ReplyDeleteI'm so sorry for your loss ... and for poor little Max. I'm holding my babies a little more tightly tonight ...
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